Nov-Dec summary

Wow, I just noticed that I've abandoned my blog for nearly 2 months.. Haha.. Dunno la, kinda lazy to post things up.. Act got lots of things to post up.. I'll summarize some of it now.. =)

In Nov I had a 4 week posting in something called as Community Medicine.. The whole posting was well, a complete waste of time.. The only thing I managed to learn from there is that there are still communities out there who need our help, who are being neglected by the public.. If u could see the condition of the villages around that area, u'll be shocked.. And most of them live like it's nothing.. Apart from that, managed to learn how to form questionnaires and interview people.. Guess that happens when u get some lecturers who keep on giving different opinions and conflicting with one another.. Haiz.. So dysfunctional.. And I was actually looking forward to that posting.. =.="

As of current I'm in the Medicine posting.. Loving it.. Cause u get to see rare cases.. Makes u wonder also sometimes am I in the right course or not.. I admit, there were times where I feel exceptionally down cause I felt pretty dumb, can't answer anything the lecturer post.. However, thanks be to God that He pulled me out from that mess, now I'm looking forward to every hospital posting.. =) Went to two hospitals so far.. Sik is a very nice cozy place, far thou.. 94KM away from AIMST.. Not many patients but good for relaxation.. Haha.. Yan is more like a hospital, closer, about 27KM away.. Also not bad, awesome Nasi Lemak nearby.. =p

Attended Life Camp from 4th - 7th Nov, a life changing camp.. Really open your eyes to well.. Life.. And what can u do about it.. If there's a chance I would love to volunteer in the next one.. Can't tell the details thou, I'm under oath.. Haha..

CF is growing.. Praise the Lord for His greatness and glory.. Through Him we are now officially recognized by AIMST management.. =D No more hiding under the covers, we can now really make our campus into our mission field.. And what more to celebrate then to have the Christmas Gig?? Held in campus for the first time since 2007, it was a huge success.. God's presence was just overwhelming that night.. Over 200 came, 17 saved and many more wanting to know the Lord.. Praise God for His goodness, God is good all the time!! =D

Exams was concluded just before I had my holidays.. It was a tough 1 week, 6 papers in 5 days + hospitals in the morning before the papers.. Not enough sleep + lack of preparation + no motivation to study.. Really a recipe for disaster.. Praise be to God, He sustained me throughout the entire exam.. I really surrendered it all to Him, I couldn't do it by my strength.. But through Christ, all things are possible!! =D And I've seen the fruits of my dependence on Him, my Paeds paper came back with a 60.. I was shocked myself, no one but Him alone could have given me such good grades, knowing how ill prepared I was.. Glory be to God on high!!

Christmas was a very quiet affair this year.. Had our celebration at the new church building, fully packed.. So good to see that.. Futsal in the afternoon followed by 2 Christmas parties, one at my aunt's and another at a friend's place on Boxing Day.. Good food, great company, memorable events.. Thank you Lord for sending your Son Jesus Christ on that night to save the world.. If not we would have not known You.. =)

Well, that's practically my update for now.. Will update more later on.. Ciao people.. XD

Planetshakers Live in Malaysia 2011 - Nothing is Impossible!!!

Through YOU,

 I can do ANYTHING,

I can do ALL THINGS,

For it's YOU who gives me STRENGTH,

NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE,

Through YOU,

 Blind eyes are OPENED,

Strongholds are BROKEN,

I am LIVING BY FAITH,

NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE!!!!

Yes, that's the cover for Planetshakers' new studio album, Nothing is Impossible.. And guess what?? They came down to Malaysia yesterday!!! *screams* Planetshakers was performing live at Petaling Jaya Evangelical Free Church Heritage Center yesterday (29th Oct) for 2 sessions, 4pm and 7.30pm..

And how was it? Totally awesome!!!! I went for the 7.30pm concert but was there since 6.30pm, queued up since 6.50pm and got into the hall at about 7.20pm.. LOL!! The only downside was that we can see typical Malaysian (or human) behavior when entering the auditorium.. People pushing around, cutting line, can't line up in a straight line despite pleas from the organizers.. And lying.. LOL!! Christians or not we still sin.. Apart from that small bad incident, everything else went smoothly.. =)

The concert started at 8pm, with a small introduction by the local pastor I think.. Boy was he enthusiastic.. It really got the crowd going which started off with a countdown.. Then I saw Mike Webber took the drums and I knew the full team was here.. Haha.. But what really shocked me was the lead singer.. HENRY SEELEY!!! OMG!!!!! Of all people, I didn't expect him to be here.. It was a real blessing to see him lead the entire worship..  Other team members were there too, I couldn't identify all of them but I think Brian (BJ) Pridham, Mike (Rudy) Nikkerud and Nicole Monteduro were there too.. Haha.. Lots of songs, mostly from their new album was played like Bring It On, Power, Nothing is Impossible, You Are God, Hosanna and more!! I think like 10 songs.. Haha..

Then we had a short message shared by Pastor Matt Fielder.. He is one funny guy, he really know how to incorporate jokes into his messages.. And his love about Malaysia.. Haha.. However his message was so powerful, so touching that it really made me to look into my life seriously for once.. John 3:16 "For God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life" Everything about the bible, all it's 66 books are summed up in that few words in that one verse.. People always say God is angry but here it is shown God so loved, so loved the world.. That He is willing to give up the one thing He loved, His only Son.. And His promise?? No matter how far we have deviate, how much we went against Him, so as long we believe, we shall not perish.. So powerful that on that night I saw many people being saved and hundreds more renew their commitment to Christ, myself included.. I hope to get the full recording of the message, then I'll post it up here.. =D

After that we ended we 3 songs from the older albums.. The one most recognized is Free.. Imagine wei, Henry Seeley singing Free at his best.. Then after that was All for Love and one more song which I'm not sure what it is.. LOL!! Henry Seeley even took the drums at the last 5 minutes while Mike Webber took over as song leader.. It's superb wei.. 

In conclusion, it was the best thing that has happened to me.. Better than the conference in 05, better than Hillsong's last year.. Simply because the experience is soooo surreal.. I even got the signed copy of Nothing is Impossible, a PS T-shirt and a pic with Pastor Matt himself!! =D To those who missed it, don't be sad.. I'm sure they will come again, this time I really hope the conference come like in 05, it will be really amazing..  

ALL GLORY TO GOD, FOR HIS SPIRIT WORK WONDERS YESTERDAY AT PJEFC!! MANY WERE SAVED, MANY RENEW THEIR COMMITMENT AND THE WHOLE NATION CRIES OUT FOR A REVIVAL OF MALAYSIA!! PRAISE BE TO GOD!! AMEN!!

My Church's New Building!!! =D PTL!!!

God is great.. Despite how many times we have turned away from Him, He is always there for us.. And He will make good of His promises, we just have to be patient.. And on Saturday was the day where I saw God's work in the area of my church, Bountiful Grace Methodist Church (BGMC)..

Saturday night was the first time I entered my church's new building.. I've been hearing from my parents how awesome it is, how splendor and marvelous it looks, how God has been so good to our church.. However, I never really got the chance to see it as I am stuck in Kedah and only come back when there's a long break.. So as I went to visit my church that night, I was really hoping for the best.. What I saw was breathtaking..

Before I go into further detail, allow me to give a bit of history to my church (oh no, boring part..) My church started off as a small outreach point by the main Chinese Methodist Church back in 1977 (wow,  that's long).. Slowly but surely the number of members begin to grow.. As time went by, there was a proposal that my church become a independent church, under the Council of Churches of Malaysia.. After many years of planning and discussion, finally in April 2002 my church was formed, taking the name Bountiful Grace Methodist Church.. My family were one of the original members of this church as it slowly ascend upwards.. =)

Now, the current church building is a corner lot double story terrace house and we share it with a Methodist kindergarten.. So as the number of members grew, we begin to find it hard to accommodate them.. Major renovations were carried out but it was still wasn't enough.. In 2003, the Pastor at that time mooted the idea for us to have a bigger building for worship.. At first we try to acquire a piece of land to build our own church but that proof to be futile.. After that we try to acquire a building and convert it into a church.. The first building that was scouted was a triple story shop house in Seremban 2 in 2006 but many complications came along and the idea was shelved in 2008.. However by God's grace, a second building, the current two and a half story was bought in 2008.. The building was in the construction phase and we had very little issues in acquiring it (except the issue that the building was being sold to a church which was later cleared)

Once the building was acquired, major renovation work went underway in April 2011 and were completed on Malaysia day.. And the end result was this.. =)

A shot from outside

Main entrance

Main Santuary

The Cross, made from tinted glass (which my camera failed to capture) and has a very interesting story behind it.. =)

Basement level 

 First Floor

Now you know why it was breathtaking.. Never I would imagine I would see my church rise up so fast to have it's own building, it's own place of worship.. God really works wonder in our lives, you just have to believe it.. As I walked from top to bottom, I just couldn't stop and admire the work of the Lord.. I was so touched that I shed a tear or two.. God is really amazing.. An idea mooted nearly 8 years ago has finally come true.. And the best thing is more and more people are getting to know Him every week.. The Sunday School is flooded with children of all ages and the worship session is slowly growing larger..

The stage has been set, God has delivered for us.. Now it is our turn to go out and make disciples of his people.. As Jesus said in Matthew 9:37-38, "The harvest is plentiful but the workers are few. Ask the Lord of harvest, therefore, to send out workers into his harvest field;" we need spread  the word of God to the people around the area and lead them to the Way.. 

GOD IS GOOD, ALL THE TIME!!! =D

Clueless to what to blog..

Hey readers, what do u want me to blog about?? LET ME KNOW!!! XD

I guess my caption says it all.. Seriously I'm having some kind of blogger's block.. LOL!! This blog has been running for the past 4 years, more or less.. And I'm surprised that it stayed like this that long.. When I began to blog I was like OK, this will probably last a few months before I give up totally on it.. Well, that doesn't seem to be the case cause my blog just kept picking up.. At my peak I was doing 10-12 post a month.. LOL!! That's like a post every 3 days.. I know, my life sucks doesn't it?? LOL!!

On another hand, looking back at all the old post showed me how much I have grown up in these last 3 years.. From being a Upper 6 student when I began to a 3rd year Medical student now.. Wow, time really flies doesn't it?? Hehe.. I just wish I still have the will to carry on blogging.. Sometimes I just feel like letting it die a slow, painful death but I couldn't.. This itchy fingers of mine need to type at least once a month.. Haha!!

Probably I should go back blogging about random stuff, like how I used to in the beginning. U know, the economy, the politics in Malaysia, the never ending fight of religions in this country.. Oh btw, a peaceful gathering organised by HIMPUN was held in Shah Alam Stadium against proselytizing by Christians.. Interesting to note that such gatherings are allowed while things like Bersih 2.0 (which is trying to speak the truth against the gov) is wrong.. Double standards or is it because of the stance of this country?? I leave it all to you to judge.. =p 

Until something interesting sparks my mind to go become a chipmunk under the influence of alcohol, my blog will stay quite dormant for a while.. Also, you all can comment to what you want me to blog about and I'll try my very best to fulfill them.. =D Till then, toodles!!

To my friends who have left..

Last Saturday, I saw a few of my good friends, seniors, graduated from AIMST University.. It was a joyous moment, to see each and everyone of them finally getting their scrolls, ending their 5 years of long struggle.. And to start a whole new journey that some have yet to embrace.. And thou it was a joyous occasion; parents smiling, lecturers beaming, friends happy; yet part of me feels sad.. Sad not because something bad has happened, in fact everything went well.. Sad because I know I won't be seeing them again in this university; never again to see them in the Medical Building or the Library, no longer attending and worshiping together in CF and Church, no longer going out for late night suppers and random Penang trips.. 

It pains me to see them leave, to see them gone from this place and God knows when I will see them again.. Yet as much as I want them to stay, stay as long as they can, I'm just being selfish.. Our Father in Heaven knows what's best for them, He was kind enough to put them here, to make me meet them and to know them, to feel such warmth and comfort that I've not felt in years from friends, to impact my life so greatly that it has forever changed.. And now their time has come for this place, and the Father is going to put them in another place, where other people too will have a chance to experience what I have experience, a once in a lifetime opportunity.. =') (yes, it's tears of joy)

Now seeing their cars leaving campus one by one, as we bid our goodbyes, the ending was tough.. I am not an emotional person, I rarely cry unless the situation really really moves me.. However this time, I let the tears flow freely from my eyes.. I was holding back, I tried so hard to control my emotions but here I am, still watering as I type every letter out on this blog of mine.. I know I won't be seeing them again, at least not for now.. However I believe that our Father in Heaven is kind and merciful, for He will definitely do something for us to meet up once again.. All we have to do is be patient and wait for the right time to come..

As I go back to my university life with another 3 more years to go, I know that the last 2 years + with them have been good, the experiences, the memories, the joy and the advises I have received are unforgettable.. Thus I wish them all the best in their future careers, in whatever they do.. May the Lord bless all of you in everything that you do.. And may you enjoy your the new chapter in your lives, as doctors and dentist to the Malaysian community..

To Dr. Koo Thomson, Dr. Gloria Liaw, Dr. Phebe Ting and Dr. Jickson Ng, I wish u all the best!! Be the best doctors you all can be!! I'm going to miss you all, so bad that I will just tear thinking about it.. However, as Hebrews 13:7 says "Remember your leaders, who spoke the word of God to you. Consider the outcome of their way of life and imitate their faith," I will continue your good work that you have done in this campus and I'm sure all of us here will too.. And I'm even doubly sure that you all will do what you all do best, impacting people's life beyond their wildest imagination.. God bless you all.. AMEN!! =)

"A friend loves at all times, and a brother is born for adversity" Proverbs 17:17

"I thank my God every time I remember you" Philippians 1:3

Planetshakers Live In Malaysia!!!

Hey peeps, in case you all didn't know, Planetshakers will be coming to Malaysia on the 29th October at PJ Heritage Center!! 

Yes, it's been a long time coming and 6 years since I attended the last Planetshaker's conference at Sunway Pyramid.. Wow, now I feel soooo old.. @.@

Anyhow, tickets are limited, as you can see from the poster above.. So do get it fast!! I really hope Henry Seeley comes down this time, he has such a powerful voice, God has really bless him to reach out to the world through his voice.. =D 


For more information u can contact Kingdom City, details on the poster on the above.. =)

Hope to see u all there.. *runs off to get tickets*

The Return of The Legend

Onto the next post (don't wanna get u guys confused)

I finally managed to meet the Legendary Pilak this week!! Yipee!! Gosh I miss that Koo Thomson, that guy has been a blessing in my life.. Went to Penang with a bunch of the church members yesterday and Penang traffic can be a real killer.. Imagine, stuck in a jam for 35mins, thinking something big is happening only to find out that everyone "Stop and Stare" at one car with a flat tire.. =.= IT PISSES YOU OFF!!! That's Malaysian's for you thou, I think we probably cause more accidents by looking at another accident.. @.@

We had lunch (Hi-Tea) at Flamingo Hotel in Tanjung Bungah.. For the price we paid, I couldn't complain much about the food.. Not that satisfying thou for hotel standards.. Seriously.. Alas, if u pay RM35 at a Tanjung Bungah hotel you probably getting what you deserved.. Nvm, next time we spend a bit more k?? (like 3 times more *feels the pocket going through a nuclear meltdown*) However, the important thing was the fellowship, food came secondary.. It was good to see everyone enjoyed themselves.. And the pictures, OMG!! Pilak to the max wei..  All those photos.. I think my repo is ady ruined.. T.T

Headed to Gurney Plaza for Johnny English Reborn.. Awesome movie, even thou it's my 2nd time I still can't stop laughing.. And the after credits scene was simply hilarious.. Seriously dancing while cooking?? I soooo gotta try that.. =p Probably burn up half the kitchen in the process.. =.=!!!

Back to Nasmir for some late late dinner or supper, whichever point you see it.. Technically in my terms it's lunch since I never had breakfast.. XD And then we went our separate ways.. It's was thoroughly a memorable day.. Which fits the photo album title by my friend, The Return of The Legend.. XD Legendary Pilak that is.. Haha.. Lazy to upload photos here.. LOL!!

Many more outings to come I think.. But first, my bedside CA!! T.T *dashes off to the books*

In the face of danger..

How have u people been lately?? Me?? I'm pretty much dead.. Well, NOT!! I was earlier in the week.. Got a nice present from the hospital; what we call "Hospital-Acquired Infection".. Just a bad case of cough + fever + a tinge of flu.. Which makes me ponder for a while, as doctors we are supposed to save lives and make it all better for others while we expose ourselves to all the diseases out there.. Think about it, cases like Dengue & TB are common in this country, what guarantee is to say u won't be infected by simple contact??

FUN FACT: Did you know that the hospital curtains around the beds are probably one of the happiest place for bacteria to grow?? A random sampling done showed that 7 out of 10 curtains grew MRSA; 3 out of 10 grew VISA (Vancomycin-insensitive S. aureus) and 2 out of 10 grew Pseudomonas..

Scary isn't it?? Come to think about it, I've never seen them changing the hospital curtains in my entire 6 weeks at the hospital, now entering my 7th.. Probably they do it when we're not around.. Not sure, still it's scary shit.. Plus the patient's bed is a like a buffet of bacteria.. Make your choice people.. o.o

Another thing you have to get used in hospitals is probably seeing patients die right in front of your eyes.. Imagine u clerk the patient early in the morning, say 8.15am; looking all fine and probably optimistic about his chances of survival; next hour u see family members of that same person crying and a blanket over the body.. It gets to you somehow, to see another human life pass by just like that.. It's something we all have to bear, something we all have to be strong with.. That's why it's important to know the fine line between COMPASSION and EMOTIONAL ATTACHMENT.. Which is pretty hard, and we can argue all day long about it..

I'm about to blog something else but I'll start in a fresh page.. Moving on......

The insignificant things do matter.. =)

Sometimes God can make u realize things that you think it's so small and insignificant, you think it's not even worth bothering about.. Wrong mentality I would say..

You know, at one point I was so depressed during my hospital postings that I thought I wasn't cut it out for medicine.. Cuz everything that the lecturer ask or tell, I have no single clue.. That was this one time where I felt like a complete idiot that I thought to myself; "Hey, this is not my calling, I can't even answer simple question let alone go out there and cure patients in the future." I literally had that thought running through my head and it was shit scary..

However, God sort of reminded me why am I here in the first place.. It was yesterday, just another ordinary day at the hospital.. Going around clerking patients, hoping to find a good case and present it well.. And somehow I found joy again in what I was doing.. Everything just went write yesterday, sought off, from the clerking to answering the questions to actually seeing the patients.. The feeling was like "Wow, yeah this is what I want to do." Immediately, I snapped out from my depressed mode and back to my normal self.. And I begin to understand what is being taught in the lecture (actually, I've started reading my lectures, that's why.. LOL!!) and that make things easier..

So leave it to God to decide your path in your life.. Sometimes you might think it is not meant to be but God has a bigger plan for you in your life that you just don't see it yet.. I guess I caught a glimpse of it already.. I pray that I would be able to pull through it, after all God wouldn't put you in a situation that He knows you can't handle.. Thank you God for waking me up, again.. Amen..

"Cast all your anxiety over Him, for He cares for you" 1Peter 5:7 

Raya, Merdeka n Mooncakes..

Getting lazier n lazier to blog these days.. Haha.. Guess I'm just too old for these things?? Nah.. XD Typical behavior.. When you start something new, it'll be all hot and fresh.. Then as the day, weeks and months go by the fire within u begins to die down till *poof* it extinguishes.. My blog is somewhere I think we need more firewood, like LOADS OF IT!!! =p

Currently I'm having my holidays.. I know, potong stim rite?? 2 weeks of study than holiday ady.. And it didn't started off well.. Note to self: Never eat food from a highway rest stop unless it's from convenient store or KFC.. == I was down with headaches, fever, cough and diarrhea; one after another.. The diarrhea was the worst, no less than 10 times.. I wanted to lose weight during the holidays but not this way.. o.o Anyhow I thank God for putting His hand of healing on me and curing my diarrhea as fast as it came (ie within 24hours).. After that I ate like I didn't eat for ages.. How to lose weight?? ==

BBQ gathering with my F6 buddies.. Was so good to see a few of them after soooo long.. Some never seen for a year.. Haha.. And the BBQ session turned into a grilling session pulak.. Guess no one likes the hot flames.. =p We celebrated 3 celebrations in 1 go; Raya, Merdeka and Mooncake Festival.. LOL!! Regardless how old we are, we still can be a crazy bunch of people.. I guess that's the only way we can keep our sanity no thanks to our hectic lives.. =S

Holidays are passing like a breeze.. Sometimes I wonder why can't normal days pass as fast as this.. The only time when time goes fast is when ur having fun or when ur cranking ur brain for exams.. O.o Then again, if holidays were too long I'll be bored too.. I'm such a complainer.. LOL!!

Wow, now suddenly got strong gust of winds in my place.. Better sign out first before my internet collapses.. XD Toodles!! =D

MBBS 3rd Year

My first week of 3rd year just ended.. Time really flies.. And it's flying like crazy.. By coming Thurs I'll have another 10 days of holidays for Raya, before I know I'll be moving onto my next posting n then onward to exams, more postings n after that, finals.. =.=" Scary shit wei..

Currently I'm posted in the Surgical Department in Hospital Sultan Abdul Halim (aka SP Hospital) My overall first week experience is fun, interesting, tiring n sometimes scary.. Y scary?? Well, I finally learned the importance of your pre-clinical knowledge during clinical years.. Imagine the doctors asking u 10 questions n all u can do is stare dumbly at the ceiling, waiting for a divine answer as one doctor put it.. Feel so dumb man.. So I made myself to promise that I would work hard for clinical years.. Not to mention that my mentor is the Deputy Dean of Clinical and I'll probably get my butt kicked if I don't do well.. (so pressuring wei.. =.=!!)

Apart from studies, other parts of my life here in uni are going pretty well so far.. CF is taking a turn for the better and I'm glad I'm part of it.. I really want to bring it up, to where it was before and I'm sure all the other members also feel the same way.. Also to look after our juniors, ensuring they are moving in the path of God.. =) I am still single for now.. And no immediate plans to go back into a relationship so fast.. Guess part of me is suited to be single.. =p And church is good, I'm in the P&W team now and I'll be giving my all for the glory of God.. =D

So this will be my lone update for now.. Dunno when the next one will be but hopefully not too long.. =p Take care peeps.. =D

End of my holidays.. T.T or =D

Well, my holidays are fast approaching to an end.. In another 24 hours I'll be leaving for AIMST.. Or actually halfway there.. Stopping by at Kulim for a night before going back.. Haha.. However this holidays has been a good one.. Not too long, not too short.. Thou somehow I'm beginning to get accustom of not having to sit n study every night.. >.<

Met some old friends which I have not seen for a long time, catch up with people that I missed the most, head to places where I have never been in ages.. Yup.. Tat's probably my holidays.. And finally finished reading The Lost Symbol by Dan Brown about 10 mins ago.. Haha.. Finally it is done after 1 year I bought that book.. Blame it both on my laziness n my tight schedule.. =p

3rd year.. What am I to expect? Interesting stuff I hope.. =) I'll be starting with Surgery posting and as I have heard, it is one of the most interesting postings out there.. Guess it will be cool to see various types of surgeries n stuff that can be cured by it.. Of course I have to prepare myself better, no more last minute studying, no more going out the night before exam, no more excessive computer hours n randomness.. Yeah right.. That defines me.. Haha.. However I do hope one thing, TO LOSE WEIGHT!! Damn it I gained like freaking 5kgs.. O.o Time to hit the tart shop, er I meant track.. XD

Also I hope to improve my spiritual life.. I still feel it's stuck at the same level since year 2.. =.=" Really need to improve on it.. Pray more often, read the Word more often.. Do something that's worthwhile at least.. And of course to help in every way either in church or in CF.. No more helping around campus, I think the 2 years I have sacrifice to so many events here is more than enough.. Heck, all I wanted to do was to come to study and stay low profile.. Guess that worked pretty well, didn't it?? *sarcasm*

Since there are still fellow readers out there reading my blog, silently or not, I guess I'll keep this blog running.. Sorry for breaking my promise of updating it constantly, guess laziness and an empty mind got the better of me.. I guess there'll be an interesting update tomorrow.. Haha.. Just a teaser, it's about my idea of the grass is greener over the other side.. *refer to my FB status* XD

Nitez people!! God bless u all!! =D

P.S. To all my friends who are sitting for their supplementary examination in about 5 hours time, be strong and just do it k.. U have done ur preparations well, now it's just the final battle in order to move forward.. God is with you in everything that you do.. =)

Who is still reading??? =S

I dunno what to post here.. LOL!! Like no more mood to blog anymore.. Plus I dunno if anyone still reads my blog.. Oh hey, there's something to post..

IF ANYONE IS STILL READING MY BLOG, COMMENT IN THE CBOX OR COMMENT THIS ENTRY; THEN AT LEAST I WILL KEEP U GUYS UPDATED.. IF NOT THEN THE PURPOSE OF THIS BLOG IS POINTLESS ALREADY.. XD

Terima kasih.. =p

Onward to 3rd year!!!

This 2nd post is more mellow compare to the first post.. Haha... However I figured I need to update all my readers out there about my current life..

I AM OFFICIALLY A 3RD YEAR MEDICAL STUDENT!!!

Yes, I know I'm super late.. I got to know the results last Friday morning.. When I was going to Mid Valley.. The last time I was in Mid Valley was in March when I got my CNS CA results.. Haha.. Seems MV is a good place to hear results, should go there all the way up till my final year.. XD

I thank God in guiding me through this 2nd year.. It has been a tough journey for me, with studies, uni life, family problems and personal issues are coming into play.. However our God is a faithful God; and He never leaves His servants alone to battle the task that is thrown to them.. So yeah, praise the Lord for whatever He has done for me and for what He is going to do for me.. AMEN!!

Also my heart goes out to those who are facing their supplementary examinations and those who have to repeat the year.. By no means it was an easy news to swallow.. Suddenly I've lost 8 people from my batch.. Suddenly the fate of another 40 are left dangling by a thread.. I've said it before that I do not want to see anyone drop out from my batch, all the way to 5th year.. Alas, it was not meant to be.. Some were shocking, some were surprising.. However everything happens for a reason and all I can say is be still, it's another challenge to what u can truly become.. To those sitting for their supplementary exam, do your best.. It's a second attempt to enter 3rd year, so don't waste it.. And to those who are repeating, be strong.. Your goal is still to complete this course, no matter how long it takes if u have the burning passion for it you can do it!!

So as of now my world revolves eating, sleeping, shitting, online and going out.. LOL!! Pretty lame man.. Haha.. Sadly it is only for 3 weeks before I go back to my mundane life again.. Not very mundane but still it will be like wake up for hospital, go back campus for class, eat dinner, study, sleep and do it all over again the next day.. LOL!! However it's going to be fun I hope, 3rd year man.. Time really flies.. So to all those on holiday, enjoy it to the MAX!!! Haha.. After that we'll be complaining when's holidays again.. XD

Bersih 2.0

I know this was a long overdue post.. Haha.. Sorry cuz I've been busy with holidays and partly I was too darn lazy to update my blog.. XD Now for my thoughts on Bersih 2.0

We all know why Bersih was formed.. It was for a cleaner and fairer elections in Malaysia.. Now I do not know how true is this but apparently some votes are being tampered with by the winning party; for example postal votes.. And thou the EC is a non-bias organization; we do not know the people in it.. I do hope they are non-bias as well or not the entire trust on the EC will just fall apart..

Started in 2005 as the Joint Action Committee of Electoral Reform, it changed to The Coalition of Clean and Fair Elections in November 2006.. From then on, they have had 2 peaceful protest; one in 2007 and the latest one just 2 weeks back.. Now, note the word PEACEFUL.. Sadly the government doesn't think it is a peaceful one and launch the Federal Reserves Unit and the police force onto them; like dogs hunting their prey.. What was supposed to be a peaceful protest or demonstration turned into a chaotic nightmare as tear gas and chemical water were sprayed at those participating the rallies.. Worst of all, the gov try to cover up by saying they used minimal force to disperse the crowd.. Yeah, overpowering a man with 5-6 police officers is 'minimal' force..

The big question is if everything is clean and fair why the gov had to intervene? Till to the extend that the army mentioned "We can declare a state of emergency if the situation arises".. If everything is smooth going, why want to breakup a peaceful protest? Other countries allowed Bersih to go on.. Australia, UK, South Korea, Japan, Singapore.. You name it, we got it.. Why only in Malaysia it's such a big fuss?

Back in 2007, Al-Jazeera called up our Information Minister to explain the violence that was done to disperse the crowd.. Not only he can't speak English for nuts, the way he argued back and pointed fingers was a shame to both the people and the country.. Makes you think what kind of people we have running our country.. In 2011, a similar thing happened.. Probably not as sensationalize as 4 years back but still enough eye witness account of things that were really happening.. Our mainstream media is blacking out many things, not surprising since we know who owns them.. However, my friends who went gave a few interesting accounts:

1) There was definitely more than 6,000 people that was reported who were at Pudu and around those areas.. One even claim there were at least 20,000 people.

2) The 'peacekeepers' acted like gangsters and hooligans, chasing people and catching them.. Over 1,000 people were arrested.. They also arrested people from Perkasa and UMNO Youth but the way it is done is way way different.. (U know what I mean)

3) The IGP claims they did not fire tear gas near the hospitals.. However, video evidence proves that Tung Shin Hospital is heavily covered with tear gas.

4) At least one man is believed to have died due to complication of both the chemical water and tear gas.

See the difference between eye witness account and what is being reported? Who can be trusted in today's world of deception? And another note; if Bersih was a biased organization; why then all the races in Malaysia came out on 9th July to show what they really want? If it is a biased organization; why did everyone try to help everyone on that very day? You wanted to 1 Malaysia? On 9th July we had 1 Malaysia; live and exclusive..

So is Bersih 2.0 bad? To me no, cause they are simply voicing out what has been wrong for the last 54 years.. OK, at least the last 20 years since they were good times in the beginning.. It's sad to see while other countries can have reformations and changes, this country is stuck in the stone age, making decisions that's sending it further and further into the past.. Yes, one party may have the experience all this while to run the country but shouldn't others be given a chance too?

The debate will forever rage on and until the next General Elections come, we will still continue to debate.. Will be the opposition be any good? If the current party retains power will the future of Malaysia be better or worst? Will democracy still prevail or martial law take over if the RAHMAN prophesy is true? The truth is out there somewhere, we just have to search for it..

"Malaysia is a beautiful country that is being destroyed by not so beautiful people"

Theory papers have fallen..

Finally all my theory papers are over!! YIPEE!!! Now left the practical paper.. Ala.. Sap sap sui la that one.. NOT!! 18 Anatomy stations, 17 MDL stations and 12 Clinical stations.. 47 stations in 2 hours.. Covering 6 systems.. It's going to be one long practical session.. O.o

So how did all my batchmates do for their papers?? I hope everyone did their best.. Cuz I certainly didn't.. To be honest, I enjoyed too much during finals.. Like seriously alot.. How?? Well, u dun go watching Transformers 3 when u have the mother of all papers on Monday (CNS) or play computer games for hours when u should be studying.. Or how about this; going to a BBQ when ur final theory paper is TODAY!!! LOL!!

Seriously I was asking for trouble.. However I thank God for guiding me through all the 6 papers so far.. He is really great, He who has help me a thousand times has done it again.. Praise be to God.. Among all the papers the two I fear most is my CNS and Renal paper; Renal being the worse of the two.. Seriously all I want is a pass, nothing more.. I just don't want to see my name in the Viva or Supplementary list; just move on into 3rd year and start anew.. That's not too much too ask right? =)

There's so much things I would like to update, especially on my personal views of Bersih 2.0.. Boy now that's a different story all together.. Alas, my body can only take so much beating and after 27.5hours of no sleep; I think it's high time I hit the sacks.. At 6.30pm.. O.o So stay tune my fellow readers for an insight into

BERSIH 2.0

random ranting

If you can't have unity in a batch of 200 students; how are the 200 going to face the workforce of 20k doctors in the future?? How are they going to work together with MOH, MMC and MMA if such simple things in a batch become like WW3?? It's crazy and it's plain dumb..

JUST CONCENTRATE ON THE TASK THAT'S AHEAD OF US!!!

As one senior told me, take things one step at a time; complete your Year 2 first before thinking about Year 3; complete your Year 5 before thinking about houseman-ship, complete your MO before thinking about specialization.. Chillax people, we still got the whole world ahead of us..

P.S. Really beh syok some people in the batch who happily target some people while thinking they themselves have no fault at all.. You may hide in front the face of men, but you cannot hide from God..

When groupings become an issue

Recently it was announced that for my 3rd year hospital posting, we are to be divided into 4 groups.. And we have to choose our own groups.. And that the group must have a balance in terms of gender and race.. "Fine, that should be no problem;" so I thought.. I mean how hard could it be? Form a group of 18/19 with your friends, settle the transport issue and off we go..

How wrong could I be.. The whole grouping team has really shaken the unity of the batch.. And if there was no unity in the first place, it's going to be harder to have unity now.. The reason being so is that some people have different ways of forming groups.. And since everyone has different opinion, it leads to conflicts and problems.. One chooses people who the person wants, rejecting others; another says to a group you can all join but A cannot join; one group has a terrible miscommunication which leads to the break up of that group; another had their friendship destroyed (and restored again, thank God) and still got others who "senju" their friends to the max, may it be housemates, good friends, etc..

In addition to that, you have one person who decides to bypass everything and see the higher up.. For the good of the batch yes; but of course if discussed appropriately.. Now that's another war altogether.. And to top it all up, here is a quote from one of my friends; "In order to be equal in race, people become more racist." Speaks a lot doesn't it? How can then this choosing of groups be a good idea if it breaks heart and destroys friendship? How can it be good if one feels like the whole world is against that person while another has too many people asking that person to join their groups? Alas, not everyone is satisfied.. I did suggest we just stick to the name list or the PBL groupings but it would be very lopsided.. It wouldn't be fair for those leaving outside of campus next year..

So how do you solve an issue which has so much problems? Which actually brings out the very nature of human beings? Well, it can if everyone cooperates but sadly, that's one thing which is very hard to achieve.. Personal experience for 2 years in this course.. In the end, I pray everything will turn out alright, that the people in their respective groups will be satisfied, that those with broken hearts and friendships will be mended and healed and that no one will be affected in their finals; which is by far the most important things right now..

Disclaimer: The above rant is my own thoughts of the matter after gathering various information from people around me and may not represent the true scenario of the whole situation, which could be better or worst..

D-Day in 26 hours

In about 26 hours from now I'll be starting the biggest battle of my MBBS Year 2 studies.. That's right people, it's finals again.. And this time my batch is the last among our peers to have its finals and to complete it.. Come to think of it, we're the only batch left who haven't started our finals, apart from MBBS Year 3.. Funny eh??

So it all comes down to this.. 10 months of hard work all down to 7 papers in a span of 3 weeks, a do or won't make it mission (won't die, worst is just repeat the year) and of course the sweet victory that lies after all this over.. To all my batch mates, GAMBATEH!! We can all do it, we will surely be enjoying hospitals next year TOGETHER!!

Lately I've been reading a lot of people passing away; friend's friends, relatives, family members.. Makes u really ponder on life.. Life is so short, why waste it doing something you're going to regret for the rest of your life.. Should do something fun, do something worthwhile.. Then I ask one of my friend what is worthwhile for her.. She said, I'm becoming a doctor, that's more than enough for me.. Yeah, I'm doing something I wanted all along.. And it's all thank to God for His gracious mercy to provide me such an opportunity.. So thank you Lord, thank you dad and mum, thank you all who have make my dream come true.. =)

I SURRENDER ALL TO YOU

I SURRENDER ALL TO YOU

I AM NOTHING WITHOUT YOU

JESUS CHRIST, TAKE MY LIFE

IT'S ALL FOR YOU!!!

Yes, my finals is all surrendered to Lord.. I have done all I can, I will enter with faith and I know I am able to do all things in Him who strengthens me.. Praise be to God.. Amen!!

Thanks be to God

How great is our God

Sing with me how great is our God

And all will sing how great, how great

Is our God!!!

Yes, our God is great.. Today my Renal and Haematology System results came out and if u refer to my post at the beginning of the month that I probably sat for one of the worst CA in my medical studies (so far).. However, God is great and gracious to allow me to pass my examination and above all that, to score above my expectations..

It's really true.. 1Peter 5:7 has been stuck in my head for a few days now and I'm sure all of us can really use that verse to be motivated.. I thank God for helping me in all my 2nd year trials and now I pray that my finals will also be smooth sailing..

Some of you might ask me, "It's finals, how can you be so relax?" Well, truth is I really don't know.. All I know is that I'll enter with faith into the examination hall, do the best I can and the rest I leave it for God to decide.. For it is written He will make you the head and not the tail.. Praise be to God.. Amen!! =D

For all those facing their finals.. =D

I was running through the web when I came across a blog with biblical verses for those facing exams.. So I am going to share it here.. =D

Is anyone of you in trouble? He should pray. Is anyone happy? Let him sing songs of praise. (James 5:13)

Cast all your anxiety on Him, because He cares for you. (1 Peter 5:7)

Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life? (Matthew 6:25-27)

How great is our God? He would never let us suffer alone, He would never leave us nor forsake us, because He cares for us.. So to all my friends out there who are facing their finals (especially MBBS and BDS batches of AIMST) and you think that you can't do it, you can't bear the trials that lies ahead of you, be strong and have faith.. The God Almighty is with you.. He is your protector, your provider, your saviour.. For He shall make you the head and not the tail.. (Deuteronomy 28:13)

Thus do not fear, for you can do all things in Him who strengthens you!! (Philippians 4:13) Praise be to God!! All the best friends!! Take care and God bless you all!!

About Suffering..

Would like to share with you all something I shared with my CF mates last Thursday.. I hope u all will find this beneficial.. =)

WHY DOES GOD ALLOW SUFFERING?

1) What kind of suffering that exist in today’s world?

- We see suffering on a global scale – Natural disasters, floods, famines, earthquake

- Community tragedies – World Trade Centre 9/11, accidents, tragedy at work places

- Individual levels – Bereavement, sickness, depression, broken relationships, persecution

2) Why God allowed suffering?

- Suffering is not part of God’s original created order (Genesis 1-2)

- No suffering before humanity rebelled against God

- There will be no suffering when God creates ‘a new heaven and earth’ (Revelation 21)

- Suffering entered because of Adam and Eve sinned.

- Why God allowed it?

i) Because he loves us and wanted to give us free will

ii) Love is not love if it is forced, it can only be love if there is a real choice.

iii) God gave freedom of choice in the beginning, men and women from the beginning has chosen to break God’s laws and the result has been suffering.

3) What causes suffering?

- Our own sins? Inevitable consequence of breaking God’s law. God comes down and judge people

a) The Great Flood (Genesis 6-8)

b) Sodom and Gomorrah (Genesis 19)

c) Individual sins. Ananias, together with his wife Sapphira – Sold land but kept portion of money for themselves and lied to God. (Acts 5:1-11); King David's "sin" with Uriah and Bathsheba (2 Samuel 11-12)

- Not all suffering resulted from sin

a) Jobs and Joseph

b) Jesus repudiates the automatic link between sin and suffering ( ¹ As he went along, he saw a man blind from birth. ² His disciples asked him, “Rabbi, who sinned, this man or his parents, that he was born blind?”³ “Neither this man nor his parents sinned,” said Jesus, “but this happened so that the works of God might be displayed in him.) [John 9:1-3]. Jesus also pointed out that natural disasters are not necessarilya form of punishment from God (Luke 13:1-5)

c) Peter draws a distinction between suffering as a result of our own sin and suffering which has no connection with our sin or suffering “for doing good”

(For it is commendable if someone bears up under the pain of unjust suffering because they are conscious of God. ²⁰ But how is it to your credit if you receive a beating for doing wrong and endure it? But if you suffer for doing good and you endure it, this is commendable before God.) [1 Peter 2:19-20]

- Sin of others?

a) War, famine, man-made disasters

b) Murder, theft, rape

- Sin of a fallen world?

a) Adam and Eve’s sin – only a small proportion. It was their result that “thorns and thistles” entered the world (Genesis 3:18)

- We shouldn’t judge others for their suffering “When they kept on questioning him, he straightened up and said to them, “Let any one of you who is without sin be the first to throw a stone at her.” (John 8:7)

4) God works through suffering

- Suffering is used by God to draw us to Christ

- God uses suffering to bring us to Christian maturity – uses it to build our characters. ( ¹⁰ Our fathers disciplined us for a little while as they thought best; but God disciplines us for our good, in order that we may share in his holiness. ¹¹ No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it.) [Hebrews 12:10-11]

- To make our lives more fruitful – Jesus said that as a gardener prunes the vine, so God prunes every fruitful branch ‘so that is will be even more fruitful’ (John 15:2)

- People who suffer, who toil, have their eyes on God

- God often uses suffering to bring about his good purposes – Life of Joseph – not easy to see God’s plan early on but it will be revealed later on

5) God more than compensates for our suffering

a) Joseph

- God was always with Joseph (Genesis 39:21), regardless as a slave in Potiphar’s house or in prison. In the end he was put in charge of the whole land of Egypt and he managed to see his entire family reunited and rescued from starvation.

b) Job

- Loss everything, wealth, all his children and finally suffering from the most horrific disease. In the end blessed him with great wealth, 7 sons and 3 beautiful daughters, lived a great age and saw his children, grandchildren and great grandchildren

c) God has given us so many promises and how wonderful heaven will be.

d) Martin Luther once said “I would not give one moment of heaven for all the joys and riches of the world, even if it lasted for thousands and thousands of years”

6) God is involved in our suffering – the cross is the proof. God was ‘in Christ’, reconciling the world to himself. He became one of us; he suffered in all ways in which we suffer. He does not just know about suffering – he has suffered himself. He knows what we are feeling when we suffer.

7) How do we respond to suffering?

- We ask ourselves questions. Book of Job is not so much about why God allows suffering but how we should respond to it.

a) Is this suffering a result of our own sin?

b) What is God saying to us through this suffering?

c) What does God want us to do?

- NEVER LOSE HOPE, KEEP OUR EYES FIXED ONTO HIM

- If we see others suffering, the most positive thing we can do is to put an arm around the person and ‘weep with those who weep’ “Rejoice with those who rejoice; mourn with those who mourn.” (Roman 12:15)

In summary, we need to come back yet again to the cross of Christ. For it is here that we begin to understand why a God of love should allow suffering

1) Firstly we see that human beings abused their God-given freedom when they choose to nail Jesus to the cross. And yet God used that very abuse, enabling Jesus on the cross to pay the price for that sin, and for all sin through all time.

2) Secondly, we see God working through suffering. Those who nailed Jesus to the cross intended it for evil, but God intended it for good. The cross is ultimately a victory because it holds the key to salvation.

3) Thirdly, we see that God more than compensates for suffering. Jesus ‘who for joy set before him endured the cross’ (Hebrews 12:2) saw ahead of his resurrection, and as a result of that, to our own resurrection and eternity with him.

4) Lastly and most important of all, we see that God himself is not removed from suffering. He participated in the suffering of the cross and he suffers for us and with us now.