Monday, June 27, 2011

random ranting

If you can't have unity in a batch of 200 students; how are the 200 going to face the workforce of 20k doctors in the future?? How are they going to work together with MOH, MMC and MMA if such simple things in a batch become like WW3?? It's crazy and it's plain dumb..


As one senior told me, take things one step at a time; complete your Year 2 first before thinking about Year 3; complete your Year 5 before thinking about houseman-ship, complete your MO before thinking about specialization.. Chillax people, we still got the whole world ahead of us..

P.S. Really beh syok some people in the batch who happily target some people while thinking they themselves have no fault at all.. You may hide in front the face of men, but you cannot hide from God..

Saturday, June 25, 2011

When groupings become an issue

Recently it was announced that for my 3rd year hospital posting, we are to be divided into 4 groups.. And we have to choose our own groups.. And that the group must have a balance in terms of gender and race.. "Fine, that should be no problem;" so I thought.. I mean how hard could it be? Form a group of 18/19 with your friends, settle the transport issue and off we go..

How wrong could I be.. The whole grouping team has really shaken the unity of the batch.. And if there was no unity in the first place, it's going to be harder to have unity now.. The reason being so is that some people have different ways of forming groups.. And since everyone has different opinion, it leads to conflicts and problems.. One chooses people who the person wants, rejecting others; another says to a group you can all join but A cannot join; one group has a terrible miscommunication which leads to the break up of that group; another had their friendship destroyed (and restored again, thank God) and still got others who "senju" their friends to the max, may it be housemates, good friends, etc..

In addition to that, you have one person who decides to bypass everything and see the higher up.. For the good of the batch yes; but of course if discussed appropriately.. Now that's another war altogether.. And to top it all up, here is a quote from one of my friends; "In order to be equal in race, people become more racist." Speaks a lot doesn't it? How can then this choosing of groups be a good idea if it breaks heart and destroys friendship? How can it be good if one feels like the whole world is against that person while another has too many people asking that person to join their groups? Alas, not everyone is satisfied.. I did suggest we just stick to the name list or the PBL groupings but it would be very lopsided.. It wouldn't be fair for those leaving outside of campus next year..

So how do you solve an issue which has so much problems? Which actually brings out the very nature of human beings? Well, it can if everyone cooperates but sadly, that's one thing which is very hard to achieve.. Personal experience for 2 years in this course.. In the end, I pray everything will turn out alright, that the people in their respective groups will be satisfied, that those with broken hearts and friendships will be mended and healed and that no one will be affected in their finals; which is by far the most important things right now..

Disclaimer: The above rant is my own thoughts of the matter after gathering various information from people around me and may not represent the true scenario of the whole situation, which could be better or worst..

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

D-Day in 26 hours

In about 26 hours from now I'll be starting the biggest battle of my MBBS Year 2 studies.. That's right people, it's finals again.. And this time my batch is the last among our peers to have its finals and to complete it.. Come to think of it, we're the only batch left who haven't started our finals, apart from MBBS Year 3.. Funny eh??

So it all comes down to this.. 10 months of hard work all down to 7 papers in a span of 3 weeks, a do or won't make it mission (won't die, worst is just repeat the year) and of course the sweet victory that lies after all this over.. To all my batch mates, GAMBATEH!! We can all do it, we will surely be enjoying hospitals next year TOGETHER!!

Lately I've been reading a lot of people passing away; friend's friends, relatives, family members.. Makes u really ponder on life.. Life is so short, why waste it doing something you're going to regret for the rest of your life.. Should do something fun, do something worthwhile.. Then I ask one of my friend what is worthwhile for her.. She said, I'm becoming a doctor, that's more than enough for me.. Yeah, I'm doing something I wanted all along.. And it's all thank to God for His gracious mercy to provide me such an opportunity.. So thank you Lord, thank you dad and mum, thank you all who have make my dream come true.. =)


Yes, my finals is all surrendered to Lord.. I have done all I can, I will enter with faith and I know I am able to do all things in Him who strengthens me.. Praise be to God.. Amen!!

Friday, June 17, 2011

Thanks be to God

How great is our God
Sing with me how great is our God
And all will sing how great, how great
Is our God!!!

Yes, our God is great.. Today my Renal and Haematology System results came out and if u refer to my post at the beginning of the month that I probably sat for one of the worst CA in my medical studies (so far).. However, God is great and gracious to allow me to pass my examination and above all that, to score above my expectations..

It's really true.. 1Peter 5:7 has been stuck in my head for a few days now and I'm sure all of us can really use that verse to be motivated.. I thank God for helping me in all my 2nd year trials and now I pray that my finals will also be smooth sailing..

Some of you might ask me, "It's finals, how can you be so relax?" Well, truth is I really don't know.. All I know is that I'll enter with faith into the examination hall, do the best I can and the rest I leave it for God to decide.. For it is written He will make you the head and not the tail.. Praise be to God.. Amen!! =D

Thursday, June 16, 2011

For all those facing their finals.. =D

I was running through the web when I came across a blog with biblical verses for those facing exams.. So I am going to share it here.. =D

Is anyone of you in trouble? He should pray. Is anyone happy? Let him sing songs of praise. (James 5:13)

Cast all your anxiety on Him, because He cares for you. (1 Peter 5:7)

Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life? (Matthew 6:25-27)

How great is our God? He would never let us suffer alone, He would never leave us nor forsake us, because He cares for us.. So to all my friends out there who are facing their finals (especially MBBS and BDS batches of AIMST) and you think that you can't do it, you can't bear the trials that lies ahead of you, be strong and have faith.. The God Almighty is with you.. He is your protector, your provider, your saviour.. For He shall make you the head and not the tail.. (Deuteronomy 28:13)

Thus do not fear, for you can do all things in Him who strengthens you!! (Philippians 4:13) Praise be to God!! All the best friends!! Take care and God bless you all!!

Saturday, June 4, 2011

About Suffering..

Would like to share with you all something I shared with my CF mates last Thursday.. I hope u all will find this beneficial.. =)


1) What kind of suffering that exist in today’s world?

- We see suffering on a global scale – Natural disasters, floods, famines, earthquake

- Community tragedies – World Trade Centre 9/11, accidents, tragedy at work places

- Individual levels – Bereavement, sickness, depression, broken relationships, persecution

2) Why God allowed suffering?

- Suffering is not part of God’s original created order (Genesis 1-2)

- No suffering before humanity rebelled against God

- There will be no suffering when God creates ‘a new heaven and earth’ (Revelation 21)

- Suffering entered because of Adam and Eve sinned.

- Why God allowed it?

i) Because he loves us and wanted to give us free will

ii) Love is not love if it is forced, it can only be love if there is a real choice.

iii) God gave freedom of choice in the beginning, men and women from the beginning has chosen to break God’s laws and the result has been suffering.

3) What causes suffering?

- Our own sins? Inevitable consequence of breaking God’s law. God comes down and judge people

a) The Great Flood (Genesis 6-8)

b) Sodom and Gomorrah (Genesis 19)

c) Individual sins. Ananias, together with his wife Sapphira – Sold land but kept portion of money for themselves and lied to God. (Acts 5:1-11); King David's "sin" with Uriah and Bathsheba (2 Samuel 11-12)

- Not all suffering resulted from sin

a) Jobs and Joseph

b) Jesus repudiates the automatic link between sin and suffering ( 1 As he went along, he saw a man blind from birth. 2 His disciples asked him, “Rabbi, who sinned, this man or his parents, that he was born blind?”3 “Neither this man nor his parents sinned,” said Jesus, “but this happened so that the works of God might be displayed in him.) [John 9:1-3]. Jesus also pointed out that natural disasters are not necessarilya form of punishment from God (Luke 13:1-5)

c) Peter draws a distinction between suffering as a result of our own sin and suffering which has no connection with our sin or suffering “for doing good”

(For it is commendable if someone bears up under the pain of unjust suffering because they are conscious of God. 20 But how is it to your credit if you receive a beating for doing wrong and endure it? But if you suffer for doing good and you endure it, this is commendable before God.) [1 Peter 2:19-20]

- Sin of others?

a) War, famine, man-made disasters

b) Murder, theft, rape

- Sin of a fallen world?

a) Adam and Eve’s sin – only a small proportion. It was their result that “thorns and thistles” entered the world (Genesis 3:18)

- We shouldn’t judge others for their suffering “When they kept on questioning him, he straightened up and said to them, “Let any one of you who is without sin be the first to throw a stone at her.” (John 8:7)

4) God works through suffering

- Suffering is used by God to draw us to Christ

- God uses suffering to bring us to Christian maturity – uses it to build our characters. ( 10 Our fathers disciplined us for a little while as they thought best; but God disciplines us for our good, in order that we may share in his holiness. 11 No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it.) [Hebrews 12:10-11]

- To make our lives more fruitful – Jesus said that as a gardener prunes the vine, so God prunes every fruitful branch ‘so that is will be even more fruitful’ (John 15:2)

- People who suffer, who toil, have their eyes on God

- God often uses suffering to bring about his good purposes – Life of Joseph – not easy to see God’s plan early on but it will be revealed later on

5) God more than compensates for our suffering

a) Joseph

- God was always with Joseph (Genesis 39:21), regardless as a slave in Potiphar’s house or in prison. In the end he was put in charge of the whole land of Egypt and he managed to see his entire family reunited and rescued from starvation.

b) Job

- Loss everything, wealth, all his children and finally suffering from the most horrific disease. In the end blessed him with great wealth, 7 sons and 3 beautiful daughters, lived a great age and saw his children, grandchildren and great grandchildren

c) God has given us so many promises and how wonderful heaven will be.

d) Martin Luther once said “I would not give one moment of heaven for all the joys and riches of the world, even if it lasted for thousands and thousands of years”

6) God is involved in our suffering – the cross is the proof. God was ‘in Christ’, reconciling the world to himself. He became one of us; he suffered in all ways in which we suffer. He does not just know about suffering – he has suffered himself. He knows what we are feeling when we suffer.

7) How do we respond to suffering?

- We ask ourselves questions. Book of Job is not so much about why God allows suffering but how we should respond to it.

a) Is this suffering a result of our own sin?

b) What is God saying to us through this suffering?

c) What does God want us to do?


- If we see others suffering, the most positive thing we can do is to put an arm around the person and ‘weep with those who weep’ “Rejoice with those who rejoice; mourn with those who mourn.” (Roman 12:15)

In summary, we need to come back yet again to the cross of Christ. For it is here that we begin to understand why a God of love should allow suffering

1) Firstly we see that human beings abused their God-given freedom when they choose to nail Jesus to the cross. And yet God used that very abuse, enabling Jesus on the cross to pay the price for that sin, and for all sin through all time.

2) Secondly, we see God working through suffering. Those who nailed Jesus to the cross intended it for evil, but God intended it for good. The cross is ultimately a victory because it holds the key to salvation.

3) Thirdly, we see that God more than compensates for suffering. Jesus ‘who for joy set before him endured the cross’ (Hebrews 12:2) saw ahead of his resurrection, and as a result of that, to our own resurrection and eternity with him.

4) Lastly and most important of all, we see that God himself is not removed from suffering. He participated in the suffering of the cross and he suffers for us and with us now.

Thursday, June 2, 2011

End of the final CA

Going to forgo my idea not posting till 14th july and will post one now..

My final CA for the year, Renal & Haematology System was completed this morning.. And boy was it the worst paper yet.. It's even harder than CNS, can u believe that?? I'm going to shoot those seniors who have been telling me "Ah.. It's a piece of cake.." Really kena senju man.. -.-"

That aside, I've come to the conclusion of my CA examinations and now the real battle begins.. 3 gruesome weeks of n0n-stop studying for finals.. Look on the bright side, no more classes, no more assignments, no more boring-i-will-definitely-sleep-in-class lectures.. XD Yet something tells me all is not well for this coming finals.. Don't know, just feel something is not right somewhere.. Ah.. Why worry.. Everything is determined by God, I have to work hard but in the end my future is determine by Him.. He has put me here, He has His purpose.. =D

On a positive note, me and her have begin to talk again.. I guess that's a very good sign.. Still will take time but at least we're heading into the correct path again.. Learned my lesson well, now to move on with life.. =)

Well, I got the whole weekend ahead.. Probably won't study or something like that.. Will see how, just tired of the whole thing for now.. LOL.. And I still got one last histo assignment to do.. Plus EPP exam in 12hours time.. What a bummer.. >.< Better get going then.. Toodles.. XD