My current life style
Work
Locum till 12 am
Sleep
Work
Locum till 12 am
Sleep
Sometimes I get back home 6pm
Somtimes oncall
Most of the time I can't sleep well, the days I can I still wake up every hour
To an empty bed, an empty room
Returning to an empty house
It feels.. different.. The hurt is still there, it won't go away..
They say times heal, I wonder how long I will take. I wonder will I ever heal.
Do I still deserve good things? Do I even still deserve anything in life?
I don't know.
The only way to sleep now, is drinking. Get tipsy, get drunk, go to sleep. Wake up next day, regret. So I try to avoid doing that.
I need a new life. I need a new hobby.
Maybe I just need.. a bit more time..
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