Monday, June 10, 2024

Work, Sleep, Drink, Repeat

My current life style

Work

Locum till 12 am

Sleep

Work

Locum till 12 am

Sleep

Sometimes I get back home 6pm

Somtimes oncall

Most of the time I can't sleep well, the days I can I still wake up every hour

To an empty bed, an empty room

Returning to an empty house

It feels.. different.. The hurt is still there, it won't go away..

They say times heal, I wonder how long I will take. I wonder will I ever heal. 

Do I still deserve good things? Do I even still deserve anything in life?

I don't know.

The only way to sleep now, is drinking. Get tipsy, get drunk, go to sleep. Wake up next day, regret. So I try to avoid doing that.

I need a new life. I need a new hobby.

Maybe I just need.. a bit more time..

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